Sometimes there’s this lingering guilt I hold where I feel as if I don’t deserve kindness.
I don’t want to touch on the cause of that feeling in this posting but yes, it is there.
There’s this woman in student accounts at my university who has helped me SO MUCH.
In short I mentioned I was trans to her and I think that is partly why I had the courage to come out fully.
Today I spoke to her about housing issues and my finances.
She called me later and informed me about the federal work study I was granted that was soon to expire. A bit later she called me again and told me of a position and connected me to the supervisor 😯
I spoke w/the supervisor and met her in person. I’ll see her now Monday at 1. I submitted all of the forms today and can begin on 1/23/12 😀
The student accounts lady helped me with my forms and was “glad to see [me] smile.”
She reminds me of my grandmother which is bittersweet. I feel as if I need to pay her back for being kind to me; I’m just not used to it.