what the hell is this?

Yesterday while in the men’s room at McDonald’s I had an incident – what the hell is this?

It made me feel completely effeminate and less than normal. Why the hell am I bleeding? I thought it was OVER for me.

I wanted to contact someone about this but remembered I was told it could increase, decrease, stop all together or continue as normal 🙄

I assumed I was a lucky one who it ended for – apparently not. This is truly a kick in my self-image. I hate this but I’m making myself rest easy in that I started my third week in, this won’t continue forever.

academic& “other” background

This semester I’m taking a basic philosophy course, intro Spanish, economics and classical political philosophy. People often will assume I’m majoring in philosophy since I always seem to have a philosophy class or two on my plate each semester. I’m not quite sure why that happens but ever since I started college, philosophy of some sort has followed me.

My beginning of college started at a Christian college in SoCal. It was alright but not a fit for several reasons, one being that I am not Christian.

I’ll go ahead and provide some background on that…school.

We were required to attend biblical study courses and chapel thrice weekly. Oh boy, ay dios mio, אוי ואבוי, OMGee, etc.

At that point in my academic career I was a biology major. I thought it was a good fit. It wasn’t until I transferred to my current university that I realized that though I love biology it did not give me enough of a thrill to put in such a significant amount of effort required for grades I desired.

My major is now religion. I have had a love-hate relationship with religious studies since…as far back as I can remember. Judaism, Christianity, Hinduism, Sikhism and more recently I have been examining what Islam presents.

Out of the many religions I have read up on and experienced vicariously or first hand, my heart lies with Judaism.

I will refrain from backspacing on that despite my current state of religious confusion.

Um, studying religion is what I’m passionate about. It’s surely what I need in order to stay.. focused.

There’s times I will become lost severely due to my subject of study but..I adore it. It fascinates me to no end.